It's amazing the things you can learn in such a sport span of time.
I
went for a run today. I had to force myself to get up from my nap and
get out of the door. I recently started a new medication for the
migraines I have been getting and it makes me sort of sleepy- and
whoops, sort of took it a bit too early in the day. Oh well, live and
learn. I would be lying if I said the last 12 months have been easy for
me, but I also have to learn to put everything in perspective. Runs have
a way of doing that for me.
The thing is, I am healthy. I am single, and I am very
lucky. It's about darn time I realize that. I was reading a blog today
of a girl who recently got out of a tumultuous and unhealthy
relationship. She discussed how freeing it was to go on a road trip with
her friends and not have to check in with anyone or worry about staying
out too late. I remember feeling the same way when I got out of my
relationship. I think that when you meet the right person and when you
are in a healthy relationship, you want to hear the other person's voice
at the other end of the phone, but when it becomes a burden, yea, not
good. Anyway, tangent...
I am trying to embrace being single and not yet having
to worry about having to tend to children or a schedule. I went for a
nice run tonight where about four minutes in, I stopped by to say hello
to friends, eight minutes in, I picked up a new jogging water bottle,
and halfway through, I stopped by the Capitol for a stretch. After my
run I stopped to pick up some prescriptions from CVS, and then I cooled
down with a slow jog home. Sure, it all took a few hours, but I also ran
a few miles and got a lot done. I came back feeling so fulfilled.
Along the way I had the chance to buy $.75 lemonade
from two adorable girls, say hello to old friends (and steal a few of
their tortilla chips), take in the beauty of the Capitol, the White
House, and fall back in love with DC, and I was again reminded at how
lucky I am to live in this city and have my health. This is not to say
that DC is only filled with amazing people- I did get yelled at by a
bicycist- clearly he should try running, it's more therapeutic. :) I
also passed by a family pushing a severly disabled boy in a wheelchair
with a lot of physical deformities hooked up to an oxygen tank, and my
stomach ached for all of them. Just as I was about to walk into my
building, I passed a grandfather pushing what appeared to be his own
grandson in a wheelchair and I again had that pain in my stomach. While
it is true that my grandparents are ill, I cannot even imagine the pain a
parent must go through when a child is sick- the helplessness they must
feel. I pray that I never have to go through that and that no one I am
close to has to go through that- and I wish no one EVER had to go
through that. I have to be honest, I felt so embarrassed that just a few
hours earlier I had been complaining that my new migraine medicine
forced me to run shorter distances, slower times, and to refrain from
drinking alcohol. I was complaining about lifestyle adjustments and so
many people will never even get to take a step, better yet go for a run.
How silly that all seems now.
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